I'm pregnant now. 15 weeks today. And it's an unbelievable thing I can't quite wrap my head around. For years I've thought about what it would be like to be pregnant and I can't really explain it now that I am. I knew quickly. Within a week of conception I knew it, but I had no ground to stand on with proof. 12 days pregnant I passed 7 pregnancy tests. I couldn't believe it. No morning sickness, just exhaustion beyond anything else I'd known. A serious aversion to uncooked meat of any kind. Evening stomach aches. That's it.
And here I am. Second Trimester. I can hear the heartbeat, see "it's" face, and occasionally feel something that feels like a bubble in my tummy. I feel massively protective of my surroundings suddenly. I want nothing more than to be surrounded by happy feelings and blessings. I want angry thoughts and feelings in myself and others to go far, far away.
I want God to look down and say, "This is the going to be awesome." I know that this is the best thing I will do in my life and I want to do it right.
